urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah Chanah chanahbananah 2004-05-26T03:23:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:11675 2004-05-26T03:23:05Z 2004-05-26T03:23:05Z ive had a real fun few early release days. yesterday i hung out with the a and c kids whom i never hang out with outside of school. and i hung out with them.. outside of school. eric.. the girls.. and then alex s. we went to sushi land. then petco. it was really fun, i hope i hang out with all them at least a few times in the summer, good crowd. the few a and c kids that i actually like. i got home around 3 ish. then slept for a few hours. then last night i hung out with jenny and taylor. i didnt feel very well, but i attempted to finish my IT. i got most of it done. mom let me sleep in and i went to school around 10:25. gave my speech at 10:35. it actually went so freakin well. i was prepared to take the shit from the teachers for not making creative components and visual aids.. but i guess they counted my science board as my creative component, and my toy cars, race track, graph, and data table as my visual aid. so i got a really freaking good grade. 4 on delivery, cuz i 'read' (which i did.. first time reading through speech) and 5, 5, and 6 in the other categories. about 46/50.. so like 92 or 94 percent? oh well. it was really good. then jades mom took us to lunch.. we came back here and me and jade slept and slept and slept until like 3 or 4. then some southridge kids showed up and we all hung out. mer was here and we were gonna go to this flash mob protest.. at 5:30.. and it was supposed to last 15 minuts.. and we were planning on getting there at 6. then around 5:30 we found out it started at 5:15. oh well. now me and mom are watching a movie that i like alot. and im making lasagna. YAY I.T. IS DONE IM FREEEEEEEEEE!!! the rest of the week i have NO HOMEWORK.. i get out at 12!.. AND i have a 4-DAY WEEKEND. this makes me happy.. too bad im feeling like shit. sick and period.. and just blah. tired. jenny? taylor? call me and we should hang out tonight. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:11279 2004-05-23T20:27:13Z 2004-05-23T20:31:47Z hahahahaha man i had that bikini quiz in here.. and it said i was a brazillian one. it made me laugh.. then i took it out cuz the description didnt fit me at all. im so tired and i just want to sleep. i woke up at 11:49 from a wrong number call on my cell.. but i had to get up at noon anyway for 'family breakfast'. it was good and filling, but im so tired still.<br /><br />i need to work on IT speech like madd. and im trying so hard but look where i ended up.. on L/J and aim. i need to focus.<br /><br />and man do i need a smoke right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:11232 2004-05-23T10:18:41Z 2004-05-23T10:18:41Z puke puke puke. feel like DEATH in a stomache. insanely terrible but so much fun besides the shitty shit that happened friday night at the lost boyss' show. made up woth people i havent been too peachy with lately. shitty shit.. thats all i be sayin. damn cops. dear effin jesus it was terrible. CRY CRY CRY my eyes out. so scared. ANYWAY. today.. terrible night's sleep. damn kids bringing band equipment over too late. we were all tired cold and bitchy. there was not much speaking. after a restless few hours of dozing in and out, i couldnt go back to sleep after 7:45. stayed in bed till 8:30 watching tv. cleaned. saturday market. reliving EFFING LAST NIGHT while i walked past the bathrooms. ran into carter? weeeeeeird kid. small talk. havent seen him in about a year. maybe a little less. hes back forever though. and melanie. a smoking melanie which dad saw. weeeeeeeird. got erik's birthday present from 2nd avenue. 4 skins cd. michaels. chillin. sleepin. family guy. BITCHYNESS ALL AROUND. NATALI &lt;3&lt;3&lt;3. taylor's. FOOD FOOD FOOD. moth? erik's around 9. left at 10-ish for rocky horror. it was actually pretty fun. an unexpected mallory. i love her, shes awesome. we hung out all night and talked. walked around. rocky horror picture show was pretty fun. except for that lame ass who kept yelling all the lines over everyone else in the movie/acting it out. V on the forehead for Virgin's to rocky horror? we had to go up and get spanked. me and mallory decided to rent the movie so we can hear the actual lines.. instead of that stupid guy with large man boobs. but yeah i got a stuffy nose and got really tired so i decided to come home instead of spending the night at taylors. it ended around 2:15-ish. i wanna go back when our new friend christie, christine, krysta.. or something performs next week. it should be cool. someone come with me. SLEEP. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:10793 2004-05-19T04:49:56Z 2004-05-19T04:49:56Z today was hella fun. even though i have had a sore throat. i hung out with jenny and amy toady.. we walked around.. played in the park. made weekend plans. its gonna be a rad weekend. and im gonna be out alot and im glad cuz we're with dad this weekend, and his house is not so fun most of the time. tomorrow im very happy to say is the LAST NIGHT OF JEW SCHOOL FOR THE YEAR! and after that we're goin to the distillers show. today we all went to see christie at her choir concert at southridge.. and i got home a bit ago. she did good, me amy and jenny sat in the front row and i made faces at her. i also saw caitlin in the advanced choir. they are effin good jesus. i suck. and we couldnt stay for andi's part. anyway.. yeah it was a fun day. rocky horror picture show saturday night. girls night slumber party at jenny's on friday with just us three. and now im gonna go shower and wash my gross hair.. and then paint my nails. PS- ive decided to quit growing out my hair and just cut it. im sick of it in pig tails constantly and having that be ALL i can do with it ever. anyway.. gnight.<br /><br />oh and also.. thanks livejournal for deleting my entire first post. you like to do that to me, eh? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:10575 2004-05-18T07:23:44Z 2004-05-18T07:23:44Z just got back from boston's. mmmmmm fun times. today i went with mer, tay, alex, christie, adam, and seve to the kerry thing. saw art alekxakis (sp?) of everclear perform. good GOD i love everclear. and art is a hottie to be reckoned let me tell you. and that one guy from lord of el rings/rudy? yeah thats right he waved and smiled at me. and so did art. we got so effing close. but yeah and then the VP guy pointed at seve and smiled. it was radical. we got sooooo uber close and it was by accident.. we were just going undercover cuz of rain and it turned out to be a great spot. we also cut in line to get in past the like 5 block long line. no one even noticed. they took adam's bullet belt at security but he got it back. me and taylor got shirts that they threw to people. christie has mine. then we all hung out here. me and taylor went to go check on jenny cuz she seemed sadness earlier when she didnt wanna come with us. but i guess not. i love you jenny. mmm milkshake that me and mom got on the way home. ::stomache pains not from milkshake:: damn the world. and damn my uterus!<br /><br />ps- me and mer made friends with this baby luke. hes so cute.<br /><br />pps- i also would like to state that i happen to HATE with a passion the majority of my tech class. sometimes i like to pretend that the game we play for extra credit.. (and i have 119% in that class and all the answers we get are because of ME and in my group they STILL get mad at me when i miss one..) is a life or death situation. OH WAIT thats the kids in there. cool. man i love them. <br /><br />sorry. its been bugging me since 2nd period. oh man and in 5th i fell asleep.. and woke up with a HUGE shake cuz i had a falling-off-the-cliff dream. i also got a 25% on my math test. NICE! sleep. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:10248 2004-05-17T07:17:12Z 2004-05-17T07:17:12Z oh my effing god. i hate you lj. i just lost my entire post. and i was completely FINISHED. GOD DAMN IT. i basically just said.. yesterday i babysat.. then went to the play at my school with adam nick and caitlin. and we met jade, guy, and dustin there.. dustins cool and so is guy.. we had fun and we went out to dinner afterward at red robbins. today i babysat.. hung out with nick while sev was downtown with erika.. tay came over.. alex came over.. michael for a few.. we all watched movies. sev came home and me and taylor brought jenny a rose and she came back with us. we watched love actually which was sooooo cute. we loved it. then seve made us watch the nick berg video. it made me so sick i coudlnt even watch all of it. it was terrible. yeah then we all hung out and watched another movie. nikki came over and it was fun even though we did like nothing. thats one of the things i love about her. how doing nothing is always fun. just watching movies and cuddling and talking. nick and alex left, then jenny left. but taylor stayed and him and seve made brownies. mm mm good. anyway. nice relazing weekend. and now i go to sleep. i love you and goodnight. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:10126 2004-05-15T07:28:56Z 2004-05-15T07:28:56Z show tonight. havent updated in awhile. not alot new.. alot of depressing/layed back shit at school. cried twice on thursday just because of a class discussion..then a holocaust speaker. today was 2 assemblies.. just easy shit goin on at escuela. good grades for midterms. hanging out with friends alot. went out with holland last night which was nice. havent seen her since winter break..and she just got back for the summer from college like 3 days ago. the boys played really well tonight. me and mer danced like dancing queens. young and sweet only 17. and 14. i also had a good time with fun people tonight. me and the boys and christie played on this huge tall bar thing after everyone left. it was fun, swinging on it and all. anyway yeah thats about all as of L-A-T-E. dont know why i typed it like that. gonna go eat some cinner-min rolls and more good food and watch sex and el city.<br /><br />anyway. as for how i feel..i hate how i feel sometimes. really truely hate it. one of those things that i cant help at all, and theres no reason for it. and itd be so much easier if i didnt feel that.. but i do. i just do. and i try so very hard not to. it just fuckin sucks. cuz then that triggers my whole mood. and it shouldnt. it has no right or reason to.<br /><br />ps-- :( my jenny girl is sick. its so very sad. call me when youre up to hang out. love you! feel better baby. &lt;3 &lt;3 we missed you tonight.<br /><br />and on a lighter note: ive got a date with the nikki on sunday. it involves lazy cuddles. the fouton. baby time. and styrofoam burnt-free grilled cheeses. plus dance parties and song sessions in el kitchen. jus like the good old days.<br /><br />later skaters. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:9771 2004-05-10T04:20:22Z 2004-05-10T04:33:54Z flogging molly shit shit and more shit. nothing to post about that anyone cares about. ive just been doing alot of thinking lately. and contemplating. i just picked a bouquet of roses from our garden for mom for mothers day. we cleaned and im about to start dinner.. when i get word of her coming home. but ya know, work has kept her way late. and on fucking mothers day. its bullshit. but i completely admire that she wont leave until she knows they will be okay without her. she has such a passion for her job even though she hates it so much. today we worked for dad. me sev and nick. made like eh 80 bucks? dont get paid for week or something. got my camera back yesterday.. its the only mint model of my camera that the guy has seen in a long time.. worth over like 600-700 dollars. im so glad its fixed now. went to a day show yesterday.. plan r, escaped, straightjacket. comedy sports last night.. very very fun and funny. roccos for dinner. battle of the bands got cancelled last wednesday cuz of a swarm of bees or some shit. hangin out with jenny and taylor a bit more than the rest of my friends, i love them both so much, they are some pretty one of a kind friends. they came over thursday night for a spur of the moment friends finale party along with jade who spent the night, and punk rock eric. mom got ice cream and the whole jazz.. she was in a good mood. (wed/thurs days off) then friday emily spent the night.. that was nice, havent spent time with her alone in like 2 years. and this time im not even exaggerating. shes a good kid. ive so many memories with her its insane. i almost busted out our old best friend note book from 4th-6th grade.. but decided not to. some things are better kept in the past.<br /><br />happy mothers day.<br /><br />ps yesterday at ozone me and seve got mom a no doubt dvd.. cuz she like.. loves them. except i bought it and i doubt seve will ever pay me back. but oh well. i love my mom.<br /><br />(pps today we watched the flogging molly video.. drunk lullaby.. and it was filmed in portland. its awesome. and the ending scene is outside dante's by the paris. i love flogging molly.) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:9518 2004-05-05T23:05:35Z 2004-05-05T23:05:35Z mm i had a good day today. and getting better? yesterday was good too. i hung out with jenny and taylor. learned the game MAO? or somethin.. returned bottles. picnics. came back here.. taylor drank seves piss? hawt. to jennys. to the bridge. more mao. home. then today i went with mom to bostons and i got to 'prep' food with this girl krista and this guy charlie. they are both cool. i had fun doin the cookin stuff.. and i got to wear a bostons uniform! woot woot..... ugliest things ever. (ps mom stole me a cool bostons shirt..) 4-cheese pizza and cheesecake. older boys thinking im the hot new employee. ew ew ew ew ew. krista warned me that they are all perverts. and at bostons.. there are cameras EVERYWHERE. wherever you are.. youre being watched. its creepy. no wedgy or nose pickin up in therr. to school by noon-ish. later actually. theeeeeen after school i walked halfway home with jenny and taylor.. cleaned the kitchen in a jiffy.. and i should be off to jenny's soon if mom wakes up.. then im going to battles of the band at southridge later tonight with jeeeeenny and taaaaylor.<br /><br />&lt;3 love to all,<br />Chanah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:9246 2004-05-02T20:57:35Z 2004-05-02T21:00:08Z teeeveee last night i had a weird urge to hang out with jenny. but it was girls night sorta, plus i had no way of getting ahold of her. so instead me mer and andi went to sushiland. i didnt like it, so i ate the only real food there... ice cream. then we went to art is my voice at my school and molly got us in for free to the performance. they were pretty good. then we saw some other friends and yeah.. then we went to voodoo. i didnt feel very well last night for some reason. i dunno i just felt poopy. then we came home and i went to sleep. i dont know if i mentioned that i saw katae at eric nik and ben's show. we were really good friends at camp like a zillion years ago. oh yeah and i also met loni at the show.. erika's friend. shes the coolest person ever and i love her. this morning dad and steph took us out to breakfast then me and steph went to the mall. and today im babysitting levi. nick and adam are here.. and seve went downtown with erika. i wish i could go downtown today. i got shirts from value village yesterday. blah. <br /><br />ps-today dad found out sonia died. i miss her. shes our cousin.. and she had cancer. we stayed with her in new york. raddest old woman ever. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:9145 2004-04-30T06:07:17Z 2004-04-30T06:17:55Z last night, hot tub with jade and carina at carina's. today.. hung out at southridge. i like this no school thing. i had fun will all my friends i rarely see. wee it was nice. i love it there, but i hate the school so much. stuff with friends after school. places with alex during school for them. having to pee ALL day like no tomorrow. went to mer's tonight. SILK SCREEN! it was a pretty nice day if i do say so myself.<br /><br />ive also read some stuff tonight. and got to thinking. as hard as it is, i think im done trying in that friendship. ive tried for too long now and its useless. goodtimes were good while they lasted but people drift.. sometimes too far. im fine with the no more alone time, the everyonce in a while type of friendship. theres still the love, which im more than happy with. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:8903 2004-04-28T04:44:32Z 2004-04-28T04:47:17Z today was pretty normal. nothin too interesting happened. me and christine hung out at her and michael's with the boys.. and we tried to visit mama mer but she was at tomas's. saddness. then me adam and nick went to the park and swinged. and layed in the grass. oh dude! coolest idea ever: miranda made jessie a hummus birthday cake. with pita and hummus and rice. it was so effin good. and now im all sad cuz my momma isnt home. her and aaron and levi went to take kayleeeeenna home to coos bay. i miss my moooommy. &lt;3 &lt;3<br /><br />dad is so mad. i turned in my IT yesterday, and it was supposed to bring my F up a lot. and today he found out that it didnt. OH SHEEEEEIT. adolf sheldon is gonna kick some ass.<br /><br />ZIG HEIL! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:8587 2004-04-28T04:27:59Z 2004-04-28T04:27:59Z someone better do this shit.<br /><br />01. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.<br />02. Am I lovable?<br />03. How long have you known me?<br />04. When and how did we first meet?<br />05. What was your first impression?<br />06. Do you still think that way about me now?<br />07. What do you think my weakness is?<br />08. Do you think I'll get married?<br />09. What makes me happy?<br />10. What makes me sad?<br />11. What reminds you of me?<br />12. If you could give me anything what would it be?<br />13. How well do you know me?<br />14. When's the last time you saw me?<br />15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?<br />16. Do you think I could kill someone?<br />17. Describe me in one word.<br />18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?<br />19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?<br />20. Are you going to put this on your profile and see what I say about you?<br />21. Wanna make out? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:8213 2004-04-27T17:18:15Z 2004-04-27T17:18:15Z man im so bored. we have 2 days for math testing and i finished yesterday, i only had 3 questions left today. so theres noooooooothin to do. ive been reading this book that mer gave me. its called the lovely bones. its sooo depressing. and all i can think about is if i were in the sister's place. cuz her sister dies. god that would fucking suck if seve or levi died. it makes me so sad i dont even wanna think about it anymore so im gonna STOP. and think about this awesome cd that im listening to. that keeps skipping. yeah its blink 182, whats up. <br /><br />hannah is completely and totally right. which pisses me off so much.<br /><br />no school for a and c on thursday and friday. i am hanging out at southridge. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:7989 2004-04-27T05:02:48Z 2004-04-27T05:02:48Z yay mama mer is home! i missed her oh so much. today was effin fun though. 6th period was awesome, i talked with nick alot. hes a really cool guy. then after school i hung out with jenny and amy. i love them both so much. then i went to band practice at john sheldons. it was a horrible one though. i came home and watched shining through, the best effin movie ever. melanie griffith is sucha badass. <br /><br />happy birthday jessie. and my aunt debbi. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:7925 2004-04-25T00:19:54Z 2004-04-25T00:19:54Z last night was weak. sorta. i saw my dearest natali on her birthday. woaaah the big one-seven. that old woman. yesterday we went on a feild trip to see dance west perform.. then we had no classes after 11:30 when we got back, so i left. met christi, met up with alex christie and nick. went to southridge around 2:30. got that booklet i was supposed to get. she tried to charge me 12 bucks! instead.. "yea... ill .. bring it..back.." then everyone went to michael and christine's, then my house.. then me adam and christi went to the show. stopped at a parking garage and rode to the top. it was scary as shit. then we ran into a SHIT load of drunk a and c kids. plus a sober lacee. then a natali and a becky. then me christi and adam came home. nick and alex spent the night. then mom picked me up this morning to watch levi. and ive watched on demand all day. just married. then van wilder. then amelie. all good movies. just married and van wilder ive already seen and just married isnt as good as the others. and levi's asleep and im bored. and now im eating cherry chocolate icecream and watching big daddy. im not done babysitting until like 11. but MEH i got 20 bucks and im broke as shit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:7529 2004-04-23T05:28:42Z 2004-04-23T05:28:42Z why oh WHY cant my family be as awesome as mers? man i love her family. me and mer walked in the door after school and her mom was like.. waiting for us with the sliding backdoor open. so we follow her out to the back deck and she has like this cute little luncheon type of deal. with wine glasses and sparkling cider. waiting for us. not martinellis, but like vanilla cider. effing good. and a french roll of bread and butter and tabouli and this cold pasta/artichoke heart stuff with alfredo sauce. mmm. when we asked why? she said because she wants to spend time with her daughter on such a lovely day. the flowers were all blooming and mm yummy. then andi and her mom showed up and me and andi helped mers mom finish the shakespeare puzzle. I FOUND HIS LOST CROTCH! then andi momma left and me mer and andi layed down to watch gone in 60 seconds. i watched it hona style meaning i crashed. woke up to them being BEEHOTCHES tickling my piggies. LAME. went home. ran into christine and laurie on the way. invited to the play. got home. hung out with seve, adam, nick, and erika. got yelled at by dad for EVER ASKING TO GO TO THE PLAY WHEN I KNOW ITS THURSDAY WHICH IS FAMILY DINNER NIGHT man me and adam had THE HARDEST time not busting out laughing when dad was getting all huffy about me asking. especially when sev was making fun of him right to his face. yeah.. so they all left and we had family dinner. john NAZI sheldon style. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:7303 2004-04-22T00:06:08Z 2004-04-22T00:06:08Z i hate my dad. "because" isnt a reason for jack shit you tight ass mother fucking nazi. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:6962 2004-04-21T05:59:32Z 2004-04-21T06:04:09Z im watchin tv... i hate my dad i hate my dad i hate my dad i hate my dad. i love my mom i love my mom i love my mom i love my mom. this morning mom was in traffic coming home from work cuz she had to go in at 5 am so aaron took me. all pissed off. i got there on time and it only took us like 10 minutes to get there. insane driver. school was LAME. i was soooo effing tired. and bored. all through 2nd and 3rd i bit off ALL my acrylic nails. they are all real baby. so yeah.. then at lunch i called mom and told her i was bored so she came and got me. no ohana. no 5th. no 6th. wooooot. i came home and it was like 12 or 1 i think and then i slept till 3 cuz we had to leave for my ortho appt. it took like an hour longer than it should have cuz that office is really fun with the records and famous rockstar pictures and guitars and the juke box.. but its sooo disfunctional. i got braces on my 3 back teeth on the top.. on both sides. weeeeeeird. my molars grew in crooked.. and it DOES matter if my molars are straight cuz EVERYONE sees those. agh. pissed. got home around 5. dad picked me up at 5:15 for this effin motivational speaker at the convention center that started at 6 or some shit. lame ass like appetizer/stand up dinner thing with crackers and cheese and veggies and ranch.. and ROAST BEEF. sick. i hate meat so much. even the smell made me wanna puke. so then the motivational guy spoke. his name was like jeff blackman i think. yeah. haha black man. then i tuned him out and started drawing. alot. i drew a picture of the guy, with his weird shaped face and big nose and huge mustache. dad saw and got really mad at me. so i crossed it out and made it the center of a flower. then i drew some more and dad kept getting mad. so basically it cost 200 dollars PER PERSON to go to that shit, and all i got out of it was 3 cups of coffee and 3 hours of "doodling". oh yea and some fancy crackers and bree. mm i love bree. and the vegetables werent even very fresh. haha oh shit today was 4/20. damn stoners.<br /><br />but on a sad note.. columbine was 5 years ago.<br /><br />oh yea and ed had a heart attack tonight.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:6762 2004-04-20T05:24:11Z 2004-04-20T05:24:11Z maaaan i had a fuuun weekend. it was seriouly all fun. but im still effin sick. so im goin to sleep early. as in soonish. dyed my hair, looks like hell. but dad made me. protesters at our school were WEAK.. i guess there were only a few of them for like 15 minutes or something. meeeeeeh. everyone made such a huge deal out of it, but we could have totally kicked some ass if we had to.. er..something. anyway. the boys played a good show last night, hung out downtown till late the night before with friends, instead of going to see tracy cuz half of them didnt have money..PSH. then friday night was a fun show too at below zero.. so overall a fun weekend. yeah. night all.<br /><br />just thought that id state that i miss the nikki oh so much.<br /><br />and the mer cuz shes all grounded.<br /><br />love to both the momma an the cool hip step momma. aww remember that you guys? hahah bob was the stern stepdad that beat us and no one liked..hahaha. :( i miss our family. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:6503 2004-04-17T09:02:16Z 2004-04-17T09:02:16Z jus watched conan, hes so damn funny. its over now though FIRST OFF --better details: sunday, solid state 4pm ?$ autistic youth, dilema (formerly Athiest Army), the observers, the escaped, Defiance, and posibly....the TEMPLARS! (ps- autistic youth, previously known as amber alert)<br /><br />SECOND: the show tonight was rad. alot of people there. ehh like who... costa, amy, jessie from school, kendalyn, rochelle and christina even though i only got to say hello to rochelle cuz christina left early.. erm.. then there was logan stephan and christi.. yeah and i went with.. alex, eric, nick, and adam and we met seve and erika there. yeah. alot of other people too. the show was fun. then me eric seve erika adam and christi rode max home cuz alex's truck has a disease and cant take more than like 3 people up burnside to go home. so we met alex and nick at btc, an me and seve waited for momma at 24 hour starbucks.. and then we came home and me and mom took mer home.. and got food. supersize-effing-root beer made my effing day.<br /><br />THIRD: ::me telling mer the story of scottie::<br /><br />eff it thats too long. read mer's lj. WHEATZIE .. or just beleive me when i say scottie was HIII larious.<br /><br />FOURTH: um. yeah ive got nothin. exceeeeeept... id like to tell everyone how bored i get sometimes when im on the computer an theres no one to talk to. this is why i make freaking boring l/j posts. yeah. and i leave you all with this. and you better EFFING do it. or i will KEEL. i like how i havent been saying any bad words. eff. a-hole. ya know.<br /><br />FIFTH:<br /><br />What is your first memory of me:<br />How long have we been friends:<br />Tell about one memory we share together:<br />Describe me in four adjectives:<br />If we could spend a day together what would we do:<br />Name one thing you really don't like about me:<br />Name one thing you really do like about me:<br />If you could give me a gift what would it be:<br />Have we ever hugged:<br />Have we ever danced with each other:<br />Have you ever seen me cry:<br />Have I ever offended you:<br />What is something embarrassing that I've done:<br />What do I usually look like when you see me:<br />What do I say all the time\whats my catch phrase:<br />Do you think we will be friends in 5 years:<br />Has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:<br />What advice would you give me, in general:<br />Wanna make out:<br />Is there a song that reminds you of me:<br /><br />PS- god hates fags is coming to my school monday for that stupid protest thing. MAN its so horrible and mean. i feel bad for saying shit like gay and fag especially when i dont even like.. mean it in a mean way.. just like making fun of people who actually use that word to like put someone down. i just feel like shit for saying that.. shit.. especially after this protest..shit.. yeah. well shit. <br /><br />www.godhatesfags.com<br /><br />check it fool ^^ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:6209 2004-04-17T00:23:19Z 2004-04-17T00:23:19Z the escaped, plan r, straitjacket(maybe), and amber alert.<br />sunday april 18<br />solid state.<br />the boys play at 4 pm, im told.<br /><br />from alex. go to the show. amber alert is effin good. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:5967 2004-04-16T22:33:06Z 2004-04-16T22:33:06Z carnival - B-to-the-K... no not B2K so today in 6th lacee gave me wrigleys gum. the blue stuff. and i was chewing it still, just now and like.. it got all powdery and started separating in my mouth and the texture was sorta like.. liquid? ew it was gross. i open my mouth in the backyard and it slithered out. sicko. but yeah. today was actually a pretty good day. last night SUCKED ass though. me and sev walked up to dads/mers.. i needed my math book from dads house.. then he got on me about my hair again and how much he hates it. "chanah, change your hair.. if its not changed by next week your grounded" .."haha dad okay ground me." .."chanah seriously i dont like it.".. "dad what the hell..what do you want me to do with it? give me ideas cuz i like it like this."... "chanah i dont care what you do just change the color! i hate black! your so gothic!".. "dad im not gothic. what color do you want me to change it." ... "I DONT CARE! ITS NOT MY HAIR!". omg. i wanted to effing shoot him. yes its not his hair so why do i have to change it?!? oh well. i told him the shit from sallys is expensive so id need some money. haha i got 20 bucks outta the poor sucker! but yeah. at lunch people were talking with me about that shit that ryans been giving me.. and how its not what he said it is.. it kinda creeped me out and i dont think im gonna do that shit anymore. but i did do good on my test and writing my paper today. oh well. yeah then me and mr albertson talked ALL period in creative writing.. about how he wants me to stay at a and c next year.. and how my dad wrote all the emails to my teachers to 'see where i am'. my fuckin dad wrote a long email to all seve's teachers cuz of his HORRIBLE (2.8 is not bad at all...) grades.. and my dad copied and pasted the email to my teachers. except he didnt change the name from 'seve' to 'chanah. mr alberton was like "whats S-E-V-E?" an im like.."wait..seve?" and hes like OH so thats what your parents call you. haha my dads such a dumbass. anyway yeah i guess alby sent my dad a really good email about me.. and so did mr mckellips. im still unsure if im going to southridge or not next year. it kinda blows.. southridge i mean. yaaaaay levi's here. i missed my boy. hes so effin cute. he called seve gay the other day. it was so hilaious.. then i told him to go tell adam that his dads gay. and levi's like "adam daddy GAY GAY!" and adams like.. "no levi thats mean... hes homosexual." it was so funny.. a 2 year old trying to say homosexual. its so sad though, that levi says all these bad words. especially like.. racial slurs, and WHITE POWER, and gay and stuff. cuz when people hear levi say that.. they dont know like that when me and seve and all our friends say that shit, that we are totally joking. anyway. man ive written alot. tonight should be fun, going to the cropnox show at below zero. apparently ive heard their music.. but i dont remember who they are. whatever. something to do tonight. only 5 bucks. and mer's babysitting the baby. OMG we got the levi new converse cuz he outgrew his other ones. these ones are black hightop. so effin cute. he keeps saying "chanah hugs! i lub you chanah!" and he keeps trying to kiss the screen when pictures of erika come up. and nikki. and then he tells them he lubs them. but yeah. come to the show tonight everyone!<br /><br />PARTY FOR LEXY CUZ SHES MOVING: april 20th.. summerlake ... erm.. bbq? yeah sure. bbq. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:5734 2004-04-15T04:38:07Z 2004-04-15T04:39:47Z yet again.. blink 182 i really dont feel good. at all. not only am i sick like i have a cold, i just really really dont feel very well, all around. jew school was no fun at all. the movie we are watching is boring. i jus layed there and thought about stuff. then dads been a complete and total DICK today. like always. i really, really hate him. and so we go to moms to get clothes and stuff on the way home from jew school and mom an aaron had today off, and tomorrow, so we pull up and mom was in the kitchen cooking away. she hasnt cooked dinner in months. it smelled so good. i just wanted to cry. not like i would have eaten the meaty dinner anyway, its just.. she only cooks her huge yummy dinners when shes happy. agh and the one day she has off dad doesnt let us be with her. she was so happy too. cuz of the days off and all. ugh. then not only is all my family shit messing with me, stupid friends and stuff are too. ive been talking to someone that i havent talked to in a long time. and i miss them alot. alot. and then after school today it was like nothing had changed. it felt like we were back in the day.. and then they called me earlier? what? that doesnt happen anymore. and i thought i was done with those feelings but im really missing them especially after the conversation we had last night. its all totally messing with me. i feel so sick. i couldnt talk to ..them.. tonight when they called cuz i was getting stuff at moms so i said id be online later.. im debating on either just going to sleep an forgetting about it.. or waiting up. i dont know. im tired. and sick. we'll see. jus to let you all know, the person it is doesnt read this. but im sure everyone knows by now anyway. <br /><br />oh look who just got online. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chanahbananah:5403 2004-04-14T04:22:18Z 2004-04-14T04:22:18Z so maybe ive been listening to i miss you the past week. i have a gross zit and it wont go away. last night christi spent the night after me, natali, christi, andi, adam, and nick went to the mall and adam got me a really cute skirt from zumiez which im wearing tomorrow. 26 bucks but FREE for ME. then this morning me seve and christi all woke up late for school, as usual. as much as people think sleeping in and going in late would be awesome, it sucks to be late to first period EVERY DAY. walking in a half hour late.. "oh chanahs late.. again... go sign in.." yeah it blows. so this morning wasnt too great. still havent even started my IT. due.. what is it now.. TWO fridays ago. thats gonna be fucking me in the ass later. second period was fun though. i fucking love mr mckellips, hes such a great teacher its amazing this year is his first year teaching. im so sad he's leaving next year, meh not really cuz im not going there anyway. his class today was great, he gave a talk about college and whatnot. just life. then math was sucked. 4th was alrigth cuz we had a sub and he sat at his desk and did nothing all period so i talked with kristin, ryan, and richard. lunch was not bad. eric broke his jones bottle and carina cut herself cuz shes emo and hardcore. 5th i was testing in the library. 6th nick was sick so it was kinda boring. alby just read poems from our creative writing packets that he passed back. 88/100, not bad i'd say. after schoooool.. i had an ortho appt. then got taco bell. then came home to a housefull. we hung out. alex adam christi and i went to 711. japped a spic. came home. they left for practice. i talked online to people..yeah people. about stuff. adam nick and seve came back and we hung out and watched scarface. <br /><br />why the FUCK did i post about my entire day? it was so boring. i will be surprised if youve gotten this far. im gonna go read but only if the book i feel like reading is here. if its not, im gonna be so pissed. bye.